I'm trying to be ok, but it's getting harder and harder.
Here's me and my kitty Mishie just now (she's my light, my honeyest as I call her. My honeyheart because she is unbelievably sweet and we've always been close. I rescued her from certain death so she has always had a special trust with me.
https://ibb.co/XxLX4Rqd
Today is the last day I can go wild on kratom, extract, and 7. I promised Betty (my wife) I would calm it all down starting tomorrow. I intend to do so. She doesn't mind kratom because it keeps my nose clean (literally,) but the rest...she's not a fan. I'll still use extract from time to time and I have a small collection of various vendors 7oh, but I can no longer use it daily. Couple times a week is the new limit, and she is REALLY against even that, but it definitely works...
Sometimes it just gets to be too fucked up and I can't handle it. I'm not made for some of the things that have been thrown at me.
I want to change them but I don't know how. That is what's wrong in a nutshell.
That is very sweet of you to say about me and an awesome compliment. You put a lot of your thoughts here as well. I know I am loved, you and h² and boureka (who I really miss and wish she was still about) and conscious conundrum (who I really miss too, she and I were buddies back in the day)
As everyone here knows, it isn't easy out here.
I'm trying to get through it all the same and thanks for your concern MMR, you're loved as well.
And not in a stupid pretend Internet way.
Actually.
Same for all of you that I know.