Vent - Need some support - COVID + kratom
Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2022 11:49 pm
I put this in off topic because, quite frankly, I'm lonely and that's the main reason why I'm writing. Part of the reason for my kratom use is asperger's and IBS pain. I find it near impossible to find love and don't have a good connection with anyone. So I think that's the deep down reason for my use, although the surface reasons are legit too.
So I believe I got some type of COVID from a family member recently. The only symptoms I have at the moment are extreme head-ache and fever. My throat felt like it had a lump or was closing a little when I first woke up so I kept swallowing, but that went away after drinking some water. No nose runs, congestion, coughing, etc.
So recently the only side effect kratom gives me currently is head pressure. I am a daily user. So when I used today, I took much less in the morning BAD IDEA. I'm still having head pressure now and I just had my second dose about 1 hour ago; I got to say that it's MUCH better now with the larger dose, but it's still there.
So I wonder if any of y'all have used kratom during COVID and experienced a serious headache like a migraine? ...(but somewhat different cause I can think more clearly. I do get migraines though, so it could be just a weird one.)
I think maybe my blood pressure is high, but I'm so fucked up in the head that I'm too afraid to take it cause I don't want the squeeze to burst a blood vessel. I just have this crazy image stuck in my head. IDK man, I feel like life could be over for me. Certain things I'm far too weak on for a guy, but then there are some other obscure things I'm not afraid of at all, but most people are; that doesn't matter though cause the former is how you are judged. Right now I'm probably just panicking and making it worse, but I mean like my brain chemistry seems so messed up that I can't just do some of the most basic things (and that's not from kratom, before kratom too). I am pretty intelligent, but I can't live my life. It's like I was put in a psychological prison that won't let me out and it's h3ll.
I was hiding from this for a long time, but now that I'm in pain from the thing that was meant to help me, I now know.. it's impossible to escape forever. And I don't condemn kratom in the slightest. It did it's thing for years without any side effects.. the problem is me.
(BTW - just watched a Joe Rogan where the guest talked about Tachykinin peptides and how they are related to social failure/isolation. Some of them get released in the body automatically when it senses we are not part of a "tribe" per-say, and the results of this are a big increase in anxiety and predisposition to the fight or flight response. It also regulates gut motility
BOOM! So this is likely my problem, but there are no approved drugs for this yet AFAIK.)
So I believe I got some type of COVID from a family member recently. The only symptoms I have at the moment are extreme head-ache and fever. My throat felt like it had a lump or was closing a little when I first woke up so I kept swallowing, but that went away after drinking some water. No nose runs, congestion, coughing, etc.
So recently the only side effect kratom gives me currently is head pressure. I am a daily user. So when I used today, I took much less in the morning BAD IDEA. I'm still having head pressure now and I just had my second dose about 1 hour ago; I got to say that it's MUCH better now with the larger dose, but it's still there.
So I wonder if any of y'all have used kratom during COVID and experienced a serious headache like a migraine? ...(but somewhat different cause I can think more clearly. I do get migraines though, so it could be just a weird one.)
I think maybe my blood pressure is high, but I'm so fucked up in the head that I'm too afraid to take it cause I don't want the squeeze to burst a blood vessel. I just have this crazy image stuck in my head. IDK man, I feel like life could be over for me. Certain things I'm far too weak on for a guy, but then there are some other obscure things I'm not afraid of at all, but most people are; that doesn't matter though cause the former is how you are judged. Right now I'm probably just panicking and making it worse, but I mean like my brain chemistry seems so messed up that I can't just do some of the most basic things (and that's not from kratom, before kratom too). I am pretty intelligent, but I can't live my life. It's like I was put in a psychological prison that won't let me out and it's h3ll.
I was hiding from this for a long time, but now that I'm in pain from the thing that was meant to help me, I now know.. it's impossible to escape forever. And I don't condemn kratom in the slightest. It did it's thing for years without any side effects.. the problem is me.
(BTW - just watched a Joe Rogan where the guest talked about Tachykinin peptides and how they are related to social failure/isolation. Some of them get released in the body automatically when it senses we are not part of a "tribe" per-say, and the results of this are a big increase in anxiety and predisposition to the fight or flight response. It also regulates gut motility